Small Miracles

Thanks to Margaret for writing about the goddess Devi for me, and for putting her own sense of humor and spin on the lessons Devi presents. http://margaretfinnegan.blogspot.com/2009/11/goddess-of-week-devi.html

The "minor gods" she mentions are very relevant to my situation right now. I hate asking for help, or admitting I need anyone, especially my husband, The Old Man. I have this vision of myself as an independent woman, forgetting that everyone needs someone.

I was thinking today that I really want to write, and want time to write. As much as I love spending time with The Kid - taking him to the pool, or the movies, walking with him, and especially the early morning 5:00 am quiet time we get together, while he is holding my big hand in his little one - I need silence and time to myself. And the writing itch is scratching long red marks in the back of my brain.

So The Old Man called, and said, "I was thinking that since I'm going to be working late nights next week you would need some time to yourself. Why don't I take The Kid tomorrow morning?"

So this "minor god" is thinking ahead, anticipating my emotional needs. Granted, I play a big role in this because I made it clear my needs were not being met, but I did not expect him to be attuned to what I needed so soon, or so accurately.

It is acceptable to depend on others. It's still so strange that I am actually afraid of doing this with a man I've known for seven years.