My grandfather was a one-handed insurance salesman. He left his family in Texas one winter to buy a cabin in New Mexico, a vacation spot for his wife and children. When he was away he wrote letters to his family, telling them about the blizzards he drove through and his negotiations to purchase the land and the building. The letters are over fifty years old, as is the cabin. The letters end with "kisses and hugs to my girls." I know this because I've held the old letters and felt their paper, like cloth, while sitting at the cabin's small dinner table. My grandfather died when my mom was still young, and I never met him.
It's one of those places linked to its surroundings. It wouldn't be the cabin without the trees sloping down the hill, or the rocky earth, so many round rocks that beg for countless hands to line them along paths, to pick them up and place them again on trails after they've rolled down the hill. The dirt roads snaking to all the little vacation homes lead to green views and to the small town of Eagle Nest and further, to the lake and the river, where my mom learned to fish.
The card-playing is done with one eye on the cards and one out the window, waiting for the birds to find the gluttony of seed laid out for them. There's a fireplace, and a kitchen, and two bedrooms. The furniture is decades old, and the books are too. The food on the pantry shelves often expires before anyone can cook it - there are cans of beans from the 1980s and popcorn with a plastic smell. There's a three-ring binder filled with "Cabin Notes," in which each visitor attempts to recount their trip and ends up writing about the people they came with: "We went fishing at the lake today and Papa couldn't figure out how to steer the boat" and "It rained hard today and Gram beat everyone at hearts again; Mom made soup and we laughed and laughed" and "Our last day, but we don't want to leave - work awaits."
There's the cabin folklore:
Have I told you about the time the bear tried to take our fish on the river? Your Papa stood between the bear and the stringer.
Remember when we found the baby magpie and tried to save it? It's buried at the cabin on the path to the outhouse.
That's where the wasp nest was, the one we all stepped in. Good thing Uncle Prunie was there when I was stung right on my eyelid.
And older stories:
Daddy put us on the horses and I thought my mother was going to die - she was so afraid for us!
I couldn't see ten feet in front of me in the blizzard - it took us eight hours just to get to the cabin from the state line.
Fifty years ago, my mother and her family spent their cabin time fishing and riding horses and running through the tall thick pines. In my office, I have a black and white photograph of Mom when she was ten years old. She's got her nose up and is stretched out, pointing one toe and holding up a fishing pole with a four inch trout on its string. She's quite the angler, so much so that when I became a game warden I had to break it to her that she could no longer catch my dad's fish for him (that's called party fishing, ma, and it's illegal).
It's the cabin, this space my grandfather carved for his family so many years ago, that gave my mother her love of the outdoors. It's why she dreamed of living in the country, and why my sister and I grew up where we did, twenty miles from the nearest town, with horses and chickens and a cabin-like home of our own. It's my mother who gave me the idea that problems can be solved as long as you get a good night's sleep and have the time to take a walk in the woods.
Because of the cabin, I have a tangible connection to a man I've never met.
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